Friday, December 2, 2016

The edge

i will run myself to exhaustion to help my Dominates - today i think i hit that marker - as a full on just barely below a migraine hit. Instead of listening, i kept not going to bed - and falling asleep all over the house.

So as my temper reared up - hey my head is pounding - i get told i am topping. i am not in trouble for my headache, i am in trouble for topping. Stubborn twit i can be - i sit outside and pull it out of my arse. (No wonder it was hurting, right?) LOL

i do not want another meltdown situation - i acknowledged what i was told. i apologized, and while i still had a excuse there - i admitted to the excuse. Took some more painkillers, ate, and now - not dwelling, learn, moving forward. i have the power to change the rest of this day - and i am going to. For the better - by my focus, concentration, actions, and behavior.

This will not be a meltdown day.

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