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Do Y/you know what happens when Y/you cut out all the extra crap from the thoughts and actually focus and look with love? Oh life is so much easier.

Soooo sooo much easier, and happier. Still working on hard on me, but not so out of control and lost on it.

S. E. X.

Giggles - today's post is just randomness... my bro got a song stuck in my head:

"S is for the simple need, E is for ecstasy, X is just to mark the spot, cause that's the one you really want! Yes sex is always the answer, its never a question, cause the answers yes, not just a suggestion, if you ask the question, the is always yes, yeah!!!!!"

Now to get it stuck in Y/yours ... nods i am playful.

Deep Breath - and Relaxes

Okay - so had a 'Gibbs Smack' from the Universe, God, whatever Y/you want to call it - and it hurt. But truth hurts - and i needed it. i have been a brat, a total jerk - a lot - and i am so sorry. i hate drama and yet i was the one causing it, and that stinks.

So to a 180 turn, to a huge smile, and to learning how to do these things correctly and not begrudgingly or half arsed. my mind is focused on my Dominates, my heart is focused - and i am straightening up before i loose the most wonderful Individuals in my world.

Sometimes that final smack - that hitting bottom and dragging through the mud - is the thing that is needed to wake one up. i love Them and thank Them Both for caring so much to let me land on my face. It is what i needed.

okay okay okayyyyy

i fight it and i get in more trouble - because all the negative comes out. i have little tendencies ... maybe a little in me - either way ... i am going to embrace it and see if i can actually find balance and peace in me.

i am exhausted fighting E/everyone and myself to be what i need to be and ... that causes me to mirror - and then i fail at being myself.

Looks at self

i have nothing against little - i love those who are. my family has many littles - the little in me needs to go down.

That is literally all i have to say on the topic.

Excited

i have some new projects in the works, and that has absolutely made my night. So excited. i know ... aren't i busy enough? Nope, i love to stay busy - i find my calm in knowing there is something to do - accomplishing it - and moving on to a new task. Okay so housework, i can mumble and grumble about - but even that is rare.

WOOTS!!! Okay that was my scream of excitement.

Plus focusing on work helps me to get a grip on what is going on in my brain - it goes so fast and from topic to topic - that taking it and zooming in on one or two tasks, helps immensely. Helps me to learn how to focus, and to concentrate.

When the world stops

The world does not stop turning, it keeps going - but when something happens that makes Y/your own personal world stop. That is when Y/you need each other the most.

i may have a few habits that do not want to break, but i know where my heart is - and i know what my intentions are. Sometimes that can mean more than anything, because i may crash and burn but i try. i try my heart out, i perhaps over try and cause myself to crash.

Falls over sideways

Do Y/you know what happens when the holiday's hit, i start a new job, and we are still unpacking from a move. Tired and busy - me. Things have calmed down and i am now finally getting into a routine that i can adapt to without over extending myself.

Which means - i get to bug Y/you more often. (Evil laugh)

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